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 I'm so bored right now so I'm just looking back at what I've written in my personal diary / journal. I've been using it since summer of 2025 and it's currently winter of 2026. Here's what it looks like! I drew the cover myself. It's surprising how thoughtful my writing was even if I was just venting. Sometimes it takes time to recognize the worth in something! Anyways, here you go : ︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵ "It's strange missing somebody who's not even thinking of you right now."  --> Honestly I wrote this about somebody who I totally should not have been thinking about haha. It's funny to read back on but I thought it was still meaningful enough to include. Sometimes I can push the context aside and honor how I felt in the moment.  ︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵‿︵‿୨♡୧‿︵ "It sucks because I look around my room and I'm reminded of what I used to be able to do." --> This one is for the ar...

Favs in music recently (metal addition) ♫⋆。♪ ₊˚♬ ゚. jan 11-17

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 How awesome would it be if i started highlighting my favourite music each week or so?  I'm literally always listening to music so I think it would be soo cute. Anyways, here you are! ╭──────────.★..─╮           Albums ♫♫♫ ╰─..★.──────────╯ First of course we've got the Metallica self-titled album, also commonly known as "The Black Album". This has totally been a top album for me for like a solid month so far. What classifies a good album to me is one where every song is a strong and memorable one. Each song from this album could easily be a stand-alone hit and many of them are. My favourite songs off of this album this little bit have been "My Friend of Misery", "Holier Than Thou" and "Sad But True". WHAT a classic old school death metal album. This is "Altars of Madness" by Morbid Angel. They're known mainly for this album. I absolutely love the double kicks, rough tone of the vocals and the slow heavy breakdowns. I love M...

Learning to sit comfortably in silence & being okay with being bored

 Hi! I've just moved into my dorm. The space is looking super cozy and I am absolutely hyped to start the school year. Today was actually my first day of having a class and it went pretty well:) I've only been living in residence for a few days, but honestly, I can see why it gets lonely. A large majority of my friends are back home, and it feels like I'm starting a completely new life with nobody around me. There are many times throughout my day where I am completely alone, and since I made the recent decision to delete any apps I can scroll on, man it is dry out here. Perhaps it's not actually dry, and it's actually my fault that I feel that way. I've had instagram since around the sixth grade, and tiktok since the ninth grade. So, I have gotten so used to having stimulation every single second during the day. But now that I'm standing back, and letting the silence speak for itself, I'm hearing a whole lot of nothing. Which is kind of the whole point. ...

Knowing yourself & what that means ? ⋆˚꩜。

​ Hie ! I’ve been having sooo much trouble with writers block recently. The only creative thing i’ve been doing is playing guitar LOL  I’m also so sleepy so I do NOT have the energy to put all the cute text boxes and stuff sorry !!  But i saw a reflective post this morning about people only being able to know others as deeply as they know themselves. And i also asked myself this same question, how well do i even know myself?!  It’s difficult to expect your emotional needs to be met by others when you aren’t even sure what you’re hoping for. This is something i learned last year, and i continue to expand on it even to this day. Knowing yourself comes with a lot of layers, but i believe that my identity is as strong as it is because i take the time to know myself. How I take silence, my reactions to situations, and even how my energy levels feel when i’m around certain people. Self reflection is so necessary to know yourself. With self reflection comes vital questions that ...

Gratitude & privilege

​ ────୨ৎ──── December 10 2025 - 4:12 pm  Hieee !! I’m currently on a train back to my home town , after writing my last exam for my first semester of college . Going from an extremely small town straight to a big city has also come with lots of big realizations. Not only do I totally love and prefer the city (sometimes) , but I also often realize how lucky I am to be doing any of this .  ────୨ৎ──── I usually have a few hours to myself daily , and I dislike being on my phone when I could be listening to music or drawing something when on public transit . Well , currently I’m writing so it’s like the same thing . But during that time to myself , I always think about what my friends back home are up to , what my brother’s doing , or how much I miss my cat . But while thinking about that … I always consider how lucky I am to have people to miss . And how lucky I am to be in a position where I miss them . I’m attending college currently , and as much as I hate doing my homework , w...

Introduction & growing with the seasons ⋆.ೃ࿔*:・

​ ₊˚ ✧ ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ ✧ ₊˚ 05 - 12 - 2025 - 2:46pm Hi !  you’re probably reading this because you know me , or maybe you don’t and you just want to see what i’m talking about . whatever the case , you’re here !  i’ve been contemplating starting a blog since late september / early october , and now that the winter’s here , i think i will . i journal almost every single day , and a lot of my posts will probably be some thoughts that i came up with in my journal . i journal to think deeply , feel deeply , and to help myself through situations . in my opinion , winter is all about slowing down and taking each day at a time . in pervious years , i thought speeding up would be absolutely amazing for my life . not only was i working nearly daily , i was also going to the gym every single day along with school and doing homework . i was hoping that the busier i was , the less time i would have to slow down and think about the things that were bothering me . which was true for some time !...

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